Free Thoughts
Always pushing people away
Feeling like I’m not okay
But try to smile anyway
Crack jokes online
Smoke my brains away when the camera off
Love life continues to suck
I make great connections
Some good conversations
But I’m always thinking I’m not enough cause of a medical condition
I never even give people the chance to accept it or not
Just close them out
Maybe because the man in the mirror barely accepts it
Always feeling like God made a mistake
This feeling I can’t shake
Too much Social media in my head
Make me want to stay in bed
I think I’m not enough always in my head
Try to listen to tunes to pass time
Almost every song that plays talks about death
Make me think about my homie that was laid to rest
I know he probably up there watching me not put forward my best efforts
The clock ran out on him before we truly lived life
Makes me want to do more every day
But I continue to play with time like I can run it back
I can move the hand all I want
But the time will never change
Trust if I could me and my homie would be smoking a blunt right now
Instead, I’m trying to get my life on track
