TBH Part III
I want you
But then again, I don’t want you
At the same time I want to wake up next to you
Sometimes I just want to swoop in for the rescue
But thoughts set in like what can I offer you
Like all I want out of this life is a rider
Someone that’s going to hold me down
Through the ups when I’m shining bright and when times get darker than the sun going down
I just hope that I have a Woman to keep me up when that time comes around
I already know what betrayal feel like
So I just pray that no lover makes me feel that pain
I want someone that will heal me when I’m in pain
Basically, I want someone that I can really claim
Someone that will ride forever
But saying that makes me second guess myself
Cause you can be all that by being yourself
But I wonder cause will I ever be half of that by being myself
I heard relationships are like a 50,50 thing and I don’t even have 20, so how does that help
Sometimes I just wonder am I man enough for a relationship
Since I’m being honest, that is just some of my issues
Some issues that I couldn’t explain
Although my emotions for you couldn’t be tamed
I wanted you but I was going through so much pain
Depression kept me back, but I still feel like I need to change
So many thoughts run through my mind on a daily got me going insane
But I just still want to see that booty start poking
See that’s my problem always thinking about stroking
I see why I’m your ex
Cause I gave you so much stress
You deserve a man that’s golden
I can honestly see myself not being your next
Because all I’m worried about is having sex
Instead of being in your corner like a ref
But like a cop, I was just waiting to make the arrest
I honestly can say you take my breath away
But we could never be together cause I’m just worried about getting the box
And I’m so mad at myself for it
So me having you, I’ll have to give up the idea
Because that boyfriend roll I just don’t fit
Right now you need to focus and I don’t want to cause conflict
But I can’t lie
You be on my mind 95% of the day
So I don’t know why I’m trying so hard to push you away
It’s crazy how you got me under this spell without opening your legs
Who said love isn’t a drug
Cause you got me stuck
But I’ll get through it
Whoever you end up with is a lucky guy
I just hope the next guy know your worth
I know what you went through I hope you don’t get hurt
You need Someone that doesn’t think like me
Someone that doesn’t act like me
Someone that you can call your King
TBH, maybe you already found your King
I know this is the end
I’ll just leave this off with what I said in the beginning
I want you
But then again, I don’t want you
